Part of coming to Jesus is scrapping absolutely all of your life. Flushing it all down the toilet. Drowning it in the ocean. Then letting him pull you up from that place of death. If you’ve never come to him like that …if your salvation was some mundane, in secret, raise your pinky finger in the dark after a self-help, man-pleasing talk.
You have missed out deeply, compared to the spiritual reality of Jesus Christ I think it is almost cruel to lead people to him like that. Coming to Jesus is an absolute death, it is a dramatic thing in the spiritual realm. It it’s sad and joyous at the same time.
All we are, the good and the bad, crushed and scrapped and drowned in a sea of death. Then a handing over of the pieces to Jesus, who does with them what he chooses.